The July rain was pouring
down, and kept pouring. Endlessly. I sat in my veranda, sipping my coffee. And
I watched the rain. I listened to its sound. There’s, ah, so much dance in the
rain! So much joy!
It’s – in a word - magical.
But in the midst of this overwhelming
rain, I began to hear a song. Very faintly though. It flowed in, in my ears, from
far afar. It, for surety, was not the sound of water, but of mortals.
The mojo of my feeling was
distorted, abruptly. For this song has enfolded me. Initially, in a warm,
intimate mood. And then, it put me in a strange feeling. It’s like a kind of melancholic
feeling. I can’t really bring myself to put it into words.
I turned my gaze around, and
looked for from where the song was coming. For in so doing, eventually, I caught
sight of it. It’s just a handful yards away. She was a young lady, beautiful
too. Seated in my next door neigbour’s veranda, she was strumming the guitar
and singing. All alone.
As she played the guitar,
she would close her eyes and shake her head to the melody of guitar. And she sang
to her heart’s content,
When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
It’s the Celine Dion’s ‘It's all coming back to me now’. I went on watching her play
guitar, and sing. In awe. I could hear her, this time, much louder - it’s, I suppose, the rain slowed
down.
In a little while, I felt a
pang of utter sadness deep inside my heart. Was it because of her song? Was it
because of the rain? Or, both?
I don’t know.
Because the truth is that I
was so bewitched. Yes, by this young lady; more tellingly, by her song.
Then suddenly, something
started cramming inside me. In an endless stream, though. My heart swelled with
an endless downpour of heavy emotions. Like the rain outside.
To put it precisely, the
lady’s song has really strummed in my heart. It stirred the core of my heart,
and unknotted all its stitches. So my emotions unraveled, pouring down.
Some of my emotions carried
a warm and affectionate feeling. Others were a chilling and dampen experience.
They had been bruised and broken by the brutal thunder and lightning of life. Also,
they are limned with loss of beloved ones, broken relationships and failures.
In each memory, there are
parts of me back there, broken off and left with him or her or them or time or
place. And I ached for them. I yearned for them. I cried.
So, going forward, I want
to say this too. For years, I had forgotten all those moments, emotions and
feelings. They had long remained dormant inside me.
However, what she had stirred
in me was a part of my very self. My past, my feelings, my works, my
personality, and my relationship with different people, place and things define who I am today. All this create me.
Outside, it continued
raining. At the veranda, this beautiful lady continued signing,
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming
back to me now